Mama Lieu

We all have a dark past that made us who we are. A moment in time when we woke up and saw that we could stay where we are or rise above the darkness holding us down and become the light. For me that dark moment was a series of moments that began when I was 18 and went on for years. One tragedy after another changed my life forever. If they had never happened, I would be a college graduate from Gunnison University with a masters degree in English and Art. I would probably currently be in the peace corp and would be looking into becoming a gallery artist and teacher.

 

A suicide, a brutal divorce, financial crisis, bad habits that followed led me to the moment that showed me just how dark my life had become, how much I had let all those dark moments swallow me. I was in my 36th hour of all natural labor, learning to face my fears and listen to the universe, and finally I held her. My light. 

 

I was a high school drop out, a college drop out, and I was waiting tables when I was smart and I knew it. I was drowning my own life because I had lost someone I adored on their own terms, I was running because I felt like I had no sense of home when my parents shredded apart their marriage and left Maryland, I was watching the numbers in my college bills not match my funds so I left. Suddenly everything I did want didnt make sense anymore.

Then I held her and looked into her eyes. My moment of light when I chose to rise above my darkness. 

 

That was three and half years ago in my journey. Now Im a yoga teacher, thai therapist, a blogger, a homeschooling mom, and happily in love in Las Vegas Nevada. My own experiences and my daughter have shown me how to create an open space with compassion, for people to heal, to be nurtured, and to find connection.